Frustration

I received my third shot yesterday. I spoke to my doctor about my continuing and worsening stomach issues. As adding estrogen back into my system would counter the effect of the shots, she told me to purchase an over-the-counter progestine cream, which is basically synthetic progesterone. Hopefully it will help my stomach issues but I do worry that I may be fixing one issue but causing another as prolong use of fake progesterone has been known to cause cancer...the real hormone actually lowers the risk of cancer but not the fake shit. So I'm going to give this a month to see if it helps; if it doesn't, I'm going to stop take it as what's the point and it's obviously not worth the risk at that point.

But my true frustration is that I feel like a science experiment. I wonder if my doctor really believes my symptoms or if she thinks I'm a bored, white woman who needs something to complain about. And I feel like she don't really understand my issues because I'm not trying to get pregnant...but hmmm, if I do want to eventually get pregnant, don't I need to fix these issues now so that I feel like an attractive female again who can actually attract an person of the opposite sex who I deem worthy enough to be with and procreate with?

I think there needs to be a list of clear questions that doctors should ask their patients to help them determine what type of hormone balance is going on, which might help the doctors find a starting point for proper tests and medicines to administer. Right now I feel like precious moments of my life are being lost every day while they try to figure things out. I've already wasted enough years with this issue. Maybe after this treatment if I still don't feel right, it will be time for drastic measures and some kind of radical treatment.

Women not only need to "Take Back the Night" from the unknown monsters that stalk us on the streets but we need to take back our lives from these doctors, who don't listen to us and assume that we're crazy or who feel that it's easier to put us on Prozac or deal with our individual symptoms instead of taking the time to get to the root cause. I wonder how many women are on anti-depressants when they should be on something to fix their hormone imbalance? Give me the strength to keep on fighting!!!