Throwing up sucks

I am towards the end of my second month on the Lupron shots. Two days after my second shot, I got extremely moody and started crying for no reason while I was working. The tears just started falling. I was fine until this past weekend. I woke up on Saturday morning and after having a cup of coffee and nothing else, I had to throw up. It was one of those dry heaves because I had no food in my stomach. I spent the rest of the day in a fog in my room. I threw up a little that night as well. Sunday I woke up and my stomach felt better although I was still a little worn out. This morning I was nauseous again; I honestly can't remember if I threw up or not. If I did, it was mainly just phlegm. I managed to work through the day but I was tired and it was hard to concentrate. Then my parents and I got a large, sausage pizza for dinner and it was really good but before I finished my second slice, I threw everything up. It has nothing to do with the food I eat so don't gasp at the fact that I ate pizza.

On Monday, I spoke to the nurse who is overseeing my treatment and I told her about my continuing stomach issues. She mentioned that my hormone problem may actually be low estrogen. It makes sence as my stomach problems started when I started using the nuvoring. I may have had low estrogen with the PCOS and then the nuvoring dropped it down even lower. When I was using the ring, I was throwing up multiple times throughout the month. When I finally stopped using the ring a year later and stopped using any form of BC, I only threw up once a month about a week before my period...when my estrogen levels would start to drop.

I just want to cry. I'm tired of throwing up, I'm tired of having that foggy head where I can't find the words that I want, I'm tired of feeling exhausted, I'm tired of feeling emotional, and I'm tired of feeling weak and like less of a woman. I'm also tired of feeling like my hair is falling out...I know I have a huge amount of hair so that it's hard to tell but when you clog the drain almost every time you wash your hair, it's definitely an issue. I want to feel good and I want to feel like I could be attracted to that special someone.

I keep trying to remind myself that this will all get better.